My single roommates and I sit around our living room, scrolling through Facebook on our phones and announcing: “Engaged”… “Married”… “Engaged”. They understand there is no max to how shit I can feel. They say I make love to my food – I take my time, I make sure everything is well orchestrated, I put background music on…
My roommates and I sing nursery rhymes as we walk to the ice cream shop. We read each other texts from guys and congratulate each other on being empowered. We share our writing and speak truths.
There was a gathering at work, a celebration. I was waiting in line for the sandwich bar with a few friends. He walked over and asked if I could put some red onion on my plate for him. I said yes. Later, after, he said, and I quote, “Thanks for the onion.” So, you know, I figure we’re friends now.
I was walking back from my pilates class a few days ago and all I could really think was, “Eff yeah”. I’m simply loving all of this.
I feel surrounded by hot and cold, hot and cold. I’m giving it no thought.
My roommate calls, “Come look at this girl’s wedding dress!” We flick through pictures and I smile inside out. One day those pictures will be of me, but not yet. I’m good.
I am thrilled through and through with the here and now.
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Ella
Song Quote:
Everything’s coming down roses. – Whole Lot of Heart, Ingrid Michelson
Sick and Sick of It 