What I felt like doing the second I got out of his office…
I went back to the homeopath, the one that “I’m Not That Simple” is about. Joyful, right? Well.
First thing he says to me is “Ella. You look better.” I got this feeling inside that I was about to have the most wonderful experience of my entire life. Really. I’m being serious.
No I’m not. First, he did the same thing that annoyed me last time (which I could say about a hundred things, so I’ll be specific). He read out every symptom I have, and asked me if I still have each one.
Me: We can just skip this, I feel exactly the same.
Dr: Exactly the same?
Dr: But you look better.
Me: I tanned.
Dr: You have more color in your face.
Me: Because I tanned.
Dr: So you still have the head aches?
Dr: And they still start in the morning?
Off we go again, repeating it all. I’m really not going to rant about this too much, I did that last time. The one major thing that bothered me (again) was that he was still trying to peg my Fibromyalgia on one specific event.
Dr: Ella, what do you think happened that gave you Fibromyalgia?
Me: I don’t know.
Dr: (pulls a snotty face) you can give a better answer than that, Ella. (Annoying usage of my name.)
Me: I don’t know. It happened. Life happens.
Dr: What do you mean by that?
Me: What do you mean what do I mean? Stuff happens, in life. Fibromyalgia happened.
Dr: So there wasn’t anything specific?
Me: No. We went over this last time.
Dr: Well Ella, I can’t remember everything.
Clearly. I was starting to get very upset at this point, because I know they have to ask, and often Fibro is caused by accidents or traumatic incidents, but we had already been over it. We had already told him it wasn’t like that, and that it wasn’t a psychological trigger. It literally just happened. I started getting this pain, then a year later, that pain, a few months later, another, and within another few months I was a wreck, and we were scrambling for appointments at the children’s hospital to get me diagnosed. It happened. It’s happening.
Do you want to hear the best part?
Dr: Oh, now Ella’s angry. She’s got that fire in her eyes. You definitely seem better than last time.
Me: Yeah, last time I was kind of having a bad day (slightly sarcastic, you can imagine).
Dr: A very bad day.
Me: Yeah. Thanks.
That’s it, I’m done now. It sucked. He put me on a new “remedy” (didn’t explain this one either), and just to make it more fun, I have to take it twice a day rather the one, like last time. I eat like a bird, people. I need food, every 20 minutes. With this remedy, I have to not eat anything for half an hour, take it, then wait another half hour before eating. The problem is, I forget to take it until I get hungry, and then I think, shit. The medicine. So I take it, but that extra half hour is torture because I’m already really hungry.
But, it seems I will just have to deal.
I get major points for not losing my temper.
A white blank page and a swelling rage… So tell me now, where was my fault? -White Blank Page, Mumford and Sons
P.s. What do you guys think about me adding a page (next to Home and About) about Fibromyalgia? The technicalities, I mean, what it is (to the best of my ability), what my personal experience is, sources for more info? Let me know.
Update (07.24.13): I’m off an vacation in a few days, so I don’t know when I’ll be able to post again or when I can sit down and work on the info page (I probably won’t have access to wifi for a while). Sit tight, I will return with a lot to tell, and the info page will make its way here. Thank you all again!