I’m done. I am done with being sick. I don’t care if my body agrees with me or not. I am ready to be healthy again. My fears will all go away. My worries will come to naught. My strength will come to light.
It’s time to get my life back. No, that’s wrong: it’s not time to get my life back, it’s time to get my life. A life in which I am able to achieve what I set my mind to, a life in which I am no longer held back by things that are not in my control, a life in which I am free.
Freedom is a simple word with a simple concept. The definition of freedom is:
1. The power or right to determine action (think, speak, act) as one wants without hindrance or restraint
2. Exemption from external control, interference, regulation etc.
3. The quality or state of being free
But the truth is, that freedom means something completely different for each and every one of us. There are the technical definitions of the word, and then there are the definitions we hear about in songs, read about in books, hear about from the people we look up to and figure out for ourselves.
I’ve been waiting for freedom for a long time. I haven’t been sitting around waiting for a phone call to tell me I’m free. I’ve been working hard. I don’t think that sheer will power is going to make my Fibro go away. If that were true, it would have happened already. I’m not sure I believe that the current treatment plan will help me. I don’t know if this will ever go away.
But I do believe that I am strong. Until now, I was hoping that my strength would help me through. Well, I’m done with that. Now, today, I know that my strength will help me through. I don’t know when, and I don’t know how, but I am strong and it will happen. I don’t care that this week was bad, that I was clearly not better this week. I don’t care that I don’t get to eat comfort food. I don’t care that I have to force myself to exercise even when my body is screaming with pain, trying to shut down because it doesn’t agree with me that I should be moving.
I care about the fact that I don’t get to participate in things with my friends. I care about the people who have been with me all this time. I care about getting better. It’s time.
Are you with me?
If the clouds don’t clear, then we’ll rise above it, we’ll rise above it. –Before the Worst, The Script
Quotes about freedom that I used in a speech I wrote last year:
Freedom is not worth having at all if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes. -Mahatma Gandhi
The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud. -Coco Chanel
I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it. -S.G, Tellntyre
You wanna fly, you have to give up the sh*t that weighs you down. -Toni Morrison, Song of Solomon
It was, he thought, the difference between being dragged into the arena to face a battle to the death and walking into the arena with your head held high. Some people, perhaps, would say that there was little to choose between the two ways, but Dumbledore knew — and so do I, thought Harry, with a fierce rush of pride, and so did my parents — that there was all the difference in the world. – JK Rowling