I will walk in there
With my head held high
And tell him it’s time
I say
Goodbye.
I will tell him:
For months and months
It’s been the same old story.
We’ve been going around and around
The same things
And nothing changes.
My feelings keep getting hurt
And I deserve better.
I don’t think you realize how much it hurts
When I get my hopes up that things will change.
I do what’s best for you
And you do what’s best for you.
Can’t you see that’s not how it’s meant to be?
Every time I have to wait for you to decide
Whether you’re going to come see me or not
(And you decide not).
Every time you say I should tell you what I need
And then I do
(And you don’t do it).
Every time I hear the phrase
“This is what’s right for me right now”
(And what’s right never seems to be
Being with me).
Every time,
I lose a little bit of my self respect
Because every time, I just accept.
But I can’t keep doing that.
There’s a limit
And we have reached it.
I don’t want to keep feeling like I have to beg
For your attention.
If I keep forgiving
That which hurts my heart
I’m not sure what I’ll have left of it.
It was exactly a year ago that I told you I loved you
For the very first time.
I gave my heart to you that night
And now I have to take it back.
I know my self worth.
I deserve someone who drops everything
When I tell them I need them.
I deserve someone who does the utmost they could possibly do
To get themselves to my side.
I deserve someone who wants to see me
More than anything.
I deserve someone who doesn’t make me wait
And wait and wait.
I deserve someone who never, ever,
Makes me feel (even just a little bit) rejected.
I deserve someone who puts me first,
And who loves in the way that I love.
Sometimes, you were that person.
But often, you weren’t.
I owe it to myself
To demand better.
I know my self worth.
I will say goodbye
And then I will walk out of there.
And also:
When I walk out of there
I will break my own heart.
~
Goodbye, Tomie Tom. You’ve been my world. I will always love you. I miss you already.
~
Ella
“I’ll always love you, but tonight’s the night I choose to walk away, I’ve got to.” Midnight Train, Sam Smith
So, so sad. But out there something great is waiting…
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Breaking up is never ever easy. Wishing you all good things as you move on.
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geez, that’s really empowering. I just through a breakup too and it’s the shittest thing but this poem shows the new and exciting future you are going to have without him. Sending love X
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It hurts. I’m sorry that you are hurting. It’s unfortunate that sometimes we have to hurt to learn what we want from others, what kind of behavior we can accept, what we should expect, and demand from others. It’s a huge learning curve. It’s unfortunate that sometimes it hurts so much.
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Thank you Ivy <3 It was definitely a necessary learning experience, and it's so empowering, but it does hurt. Thank you for understanding, and for continuing to care about me. Means so much
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It’s like you wrote my story.
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I’m sorry to hear that <3
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I’m sorry for your loss and your pain. I empathise. But, you are doing the right thing. Sending a virtual hug. Dx
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Loved it.
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